Hi — so, no worries. I’m actively cultivating the idea in my head that all things work toward the good. I think that’s right, too. We just get really arrogant trying to control everything all the time and so I’m just going to slowly extinguish some things and light some others up in my time, and trust that all will be well. I’ve forgotten how to have faith because it seems I’ve been preoccupied with how similar some things are to really shitty past experiences without realizing that they are, in fact, quite different. And that means one thing especially: I don’t have to care. Let me say that again: I don’t HAVE to care. And so, I don’t. I mean Christ Almighty, there is only so much sympathetic ear lending to really terrible ideas one person can afford before they start to lose their sanity. Not to mention silently bearing the temper tantrums of overgrown teenagers is pretty exhausting; and the dawning and horrifying realization that my ability to discern really quality human beings from — not quality? — is sometimes pretty sketchy and that’s on me and no one else. But there are reasons these lessons had to be learned. Again. And the upside is I’m never ashamed of trying with people and I never do anything hateful if I can help it. Well, except maybe write about it later (I suppose that can seem hateful if someone recognizes themselves here)…which will come as the realizations roll in. But I always write the truth as I see it. There may be some anger but the intent is never to harm. So, if you see yourself here and you don’t like it…I could care less. Because ultimately it means I tried to care and now my only recourse is to make sense of it in the way I can and that is here, filtered through my lens in my forum. As my dad is fond of telling me: self-defense is enough of an excuse to take a life so I guess it’s enough of an excuse to put someone in their place. So, while I await the moments of clarity, I’m avoiding all things related to the ugliness of people just trying to hurt for fun. I’m losing some acquaintances I guess. But I suppose if that’s all it takes to make you go, good riddance to you. I need to look in places where the light is clear, honest, and isn’t repurposed as some hack flashlight version of the real thing. Because anything less than that seems a giant waste of time going forward. Peace.
I feel like I should head to dance class tonight in Bethesda because I’ll miss it Thursday and Saturday of this week. But maybe a week off is okay if I just up the running schedule. It’s cooled off enough to start running in the evenings again, at least in the short term. Hmmm. I do love the religion of dance though…I’ll figure it out around 5 I guess. But speaking of dancing, after our game Friday we hit the Exchange and there was enough drinking happening for me to actually dance outside on their patio. Well, the drinking and partners in crime were both in abundance. We actually had a dance circle. Hilariously dumb. But at some point a very tipsy girl came up to me and slurred, “Hey–me and my friend were watching you dance and I just had to tell you your dance skills are amazing. Like, you are just naturally good at it.” Heh. I don’t know if it’s natural. I’ve been dancing since I was like 5, albeit with a few breaks of some length in my adult life. But it was nice to hear. And then Strok danced over my head. It’s exactly what it sounds like. Fun night. Pearly V for the win.
So, links and things.
The Coach sent this to me the other night and told me to pour myself a glass of wine, sit back, and savor the gloriousness. And so I did. And it was glorious. Which, of course, forced me to watch the following. (Also, Bill Maher is a total douche basket)
The Higgs boson announcement elicited the following from me upon first digestion.
“One thing that always makes me nervous about physics — or, really, physicists — is that they are constantly discovering things (data, consequences, in this case a particle) after manipulating the sacred scientific method to make their math work. I’m not foolish enough to think that this hasn’t led to some great discoveries; just that when you’re dealing with the theoretical you should remember that it is, indeed and by definition, theoretical. As my astronomy teacher in college told me, at some point in a black hole our math doesn’t work any more and so it’s okay to consult your guru or your priest or your spiritual guide for answers.”
Because I tend to use my over the counter teeth whiteners too often…
Hitch on Orwell. Truth is important to others as well. I’ve missed that.
Now, another cool conversation. We have it figured all out, it’s just no one asks us. But I’ll say this: I do enjoy finally having a friend I can talk to about this stuff that I don’t actually have to work to find the right words for fear of offending or weathering yet another outburst borne of the pathological need to never be questioned. Because holy hell that gets old. It helps that Charles tends to make rational sense in as much as his premises follow basic rules of logic. Also a nice change.
Charles: Oh for the love of God
Charles: Obama’s little speech from the East Room
me: oh yeah
Charles: Something like “We’re trying to get all the jobs back that we lost during the recession”
Yeah, and 80,000 a month isn’t cutting it
And then he was like “We’re trying to restore the security that so many Americans have lost over the last decade”
In other words “Not totally my fault!”
Although I’m curious
Was there 8% unemployment in 2002? Let’s check the tape…
Survey says: fuck and no
yeah i love the continual buck passing
that’s a dream he simply will not let go of
here’s my favorite quote:
“Let’s not hold the vast majority of all Americans and our entire economy hostage while we debate the merits of another tax cut for the wealthy,” Mr. Obama said.
I hate that we lost the semantics debate on that one
It’s not extending a tax cut!
It’s extending the current tax rates
Which otherwise would be increasing
It’s preventing a tax increase
Not cutting them
i just love the rhetoric of holding people hostage
he finds comfort in scare mongering
It’s holding our entire economy hostage to debate the merits of raising taxes on the rich
But actually raising taxes on the rich isn’t holding anything hostage
me: you understand perfectly
debating — actually airing opinions = enslavement
asking people to pay more in taxes = sweet freedom
Jonah Goldberg had a post about this the other day
There’s no “asking” involved
If the rates go up
It’s a demand
And if you don’t follow the demand, you go to federal prison
So he’s not “asking” the rich to “pay their fair share”
He’s demanding the rich pay higher taxes under the penalty of law
me: yes, you are correct
and perhaps it’s time to start being a little harder when pointing that stuff out
i know when i try, people balk because they don’t like this idea that their government who loves them would ever hurt them like that
Charles: Yeah, no
If the government is only “asking” you to pay taxes
See what happens if you say no
As Dave Ramsey likes to say, if you don’t pay the IRS
You get a set of bracelets that connect
me: that’s right
i mean, i had this talk recently about obamacare
and [the other person] was all
i’ve been fortunate. i don’t mind paying an extra tax
if it means everyone can have health insurance
because he’s a good guy, you see
never mind that it will be crappier health coverage for more money
and some people can’t afford the extra tax
it’s off his conscience
Penn Jilette has a good quote about that
“It’s amazing to me how many people think that voting to have the government give poor people money is compassion. Helping poor and suffering people yourself is compassion. Voting for our government to use guns to give money to help poor and suffering people is immoral, self-righteous, bullying laziness. People need to be fed, medicated, educated, clothed, and sheltered. If we’re compassionate, we’ll help them. But you get no moral credit for forcing other people to do what you think is right. There is great joy in helping people, but no joy in doing it at gunpoint.”
me: f*ck yeah
i have never been able to articulate that and lo and behold, there it is
i was looking for something to make me feel good today
thanks for providing
Charles: Ha, sure
Now for your jam. Still grooving on Mr. Cooke.